When there's a will, there's a way.

It's been 10 days since we started this diet. And man, it is really a test of my will. I almost gave in when my mom visited me the other day. My gigantic dog broke our gate, escaped the backyard and gave me a hard time coming back home. I ran outside in my pajamas and had a neighbor help me bring him back. It was so stressful. When I came back inside, my mom's Starbucks vanilla latte was staring at me and whispering promises of fulfillment into my ears. I literally stared at it for a few minutes, debating whether or not to take a sip. But I thought of Jainah and Ann and walked away. At church, I didn't even look at the food (they had CAKE!) and when I go grocery shopping it's so hard to pass by all the desserts. I was at Sprouts with Jainah and she sighed, “Oh man, I've never even had a chocolate covered almond before, but that looks so good...” LOL and of course, I just stared at the ice cream longingly. It's been so long, mi amor!

Last night I went to the gym for the first time in a long time. Needless to say, I am SO sore and embarrassed by how weak I am. On a brighter note, I am really excited to get back to doing zumba. I love dancing! But I need to implement some strength training in there to gain muscle and not just cardio. I've committed myself to working out at least 3 times a week at the gym. I really admire Ann and Jason for their commitment to eating healthy, being strong and disciplined in working out. Ahh...why can't they live closer?! Thankfully our gym is less than 10 minutes away. When we lived in Lakewood it was literally across the street. So when I go work out I won't be gone for more than 1 hour and I'm happy about that. This past year it's been very difficult for me to leave Kevin and Evangeline in the evening because Evangeline had a super late bedtime, had so many medications, and Kevin was always tired. I wanted him to come home and rest, not babysit and do medication rounds while mommy was gone. Since she's getting older, I have less guilt knowing that she's just going to be put to bed and while I'm gone. Plus, instead of sleeping at midnight bc of medications, she's gonna be sleeping like a normal baby at around 8-9 pm bc she only has one medication left! Hooray!

I actually just got my body fat percentage done by the gym and I have 37% body fat! HOW GROSS! Ugh! I hate thinking that almost half my body is fat! And I definitely don't want Evangeline to be like that when she grows up, so eating healthy and working out is much more of a priority than before. The person said I have to lose 30 lbs in order for me to be within a healthy BMI. I'm down with that! I can do it! Just gotta have accountability, and that's what Jainah and Ann are for! SISTERHOOD OF THE SHRINKING PANTS, GIRLS! Losing that weight, day by day....